I’ll keep this short and vague. (Trust me. I could go on and on.)
A week ago I woke up and I was in so much pain. I had tissues surrounding my bed, my eyes were bloodshot and my head was pounding from all the crying I had done that entire night. I took some ibuprofen to kill the headache, but it didn’t really kill the heartache. I was aching because I lost you long before I actually did. Aching for something physical that I didn’t have with you. I lost you, but you also lost me. So who really lost here?
Dear Noelle and Julia,
I’m sorry I disappeared from the face of the Earth for a while there. I needed some time to myself. I’m finally a working girl again now that I’m getting into a healthier place. I have bipolar disorder & it is no joke. I’m taking it very seriously. You don’t even know the half of it. It caused me to do a lot of dumb stuff that mostly Noelle witnessed and for that I’m very sorry.
I know a lot happened when/before I left. I’m making absolutely no excuses for my actions. I did what I did despite my condition. I know I DID leave with almost no warning and I am so sorry.
I hate to say that I met you guys at a very rough time in my life because I wish I hadn’t. I wish I could’ve been happy, healthy and thriving but I was miserable, sick and dying. You guys could only help me so much and please believe me when I say you did. But regardless of what happened, I’m glad I met you two and the rest of our friends that you guys introduced me to. I love you all. SO. FREAKING. MUCH.
I enjoyed my time getting to know all of you.
You were the best roommate I could’ve asked for. You were patient, kind, generous and not annoying at all which are all the qualities I hoped for in a roommate. Thank you for understanding the weight of my heart. I love you
I know we only lived together for a short while, but I love you too. You were friendly, thoughtful and I wish we could’ve talked more about makeup. I hope you enjoyed your time in Singapore and I hope to see you this summer.
You two are very unique and I’m so glad I met the both of you. I’m sorry I was so unpredictable but I really do care about you two. I hope we can enjoy ourselves when I visit. I’m invested in having a long life friendship with you both. But again, I apologize.